Recently found a song by one of my favourite artists I hadn’t stumbled across before- that perfectly fits the bad ending of a relationship dynamic between one of my characters and a friend’s: Something in the Orange, by Zach Bryan. It’s like it was written for them!
And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
'Cause if I say I miss you I know that you won’t
But I miss you in the mornings when I see the sun
Something in the orange tells me we’re not done
To you I’m just a man, to me you’re all I am
Where the hell am I supposed to go?
I poisoned myself again
Something in the orange tells me you’re never coming home
If you leave today, I’ll just stare at the way
The orange touches all things around
The grass, trees and dew, how I just hate you
Please turn those headlights around
Of course, one of the greatest pleasures of writing together is that you can have dozens upon dozens of alternate universes and plotlines to explore with characters in different settings and instances of themselves and their history- and I enjoy the hurt/comfort trope in fanfiction, heavy on the comfort: their bad route/ending is only one, and not the definitive canonical way things end for them… But it was such a lovely coincidence running across this song. Even the colour symbology lined up!
Cheers! It’s been really cool seeing what people have been listening to! Really wide spread of songs around here.
I’ve been listening to Gia Woods’ Cover Girl because it reminds me of one of my characters (he’s a bit of a playboy- the lines of Cover girl making me pray on a Sunday / What a world when you’re everyone’s baby / Want me? I’m like sure! / What a world with the cover girl are very Donovan-esque.)
On the other hand, I’ve also been going through a bit of difficulty as of late- and when I do, I normally find myself gravitating towards a curated character playlist I have for a character of mine named Joel- I don’t really consider myself religious, but to no one’s surprise from the IF I’ve penned- Catholic overtones features prominently, and I already like country music- so perhaps the overlap of enjoying Christian tunes wouldn’t come as too overly out of left field. I’ve been playing FOR KING + COUNTRY’s God Only Knows a lot as of late.
I do think it’s a bit funny that in times of personal turmoil, I lean towards Christian music, when one of my criteria for my therapist was that I strictly did not want a faith based provider, due to some bad experiences in the past. (Good old Catholic guilt…) It’s less of a ‘this is my faith’ and more of a ‘some of the concepts presented are abstractly comforting’ and I enjoy the general sound of that genre of music. It does also make it a lot easier to write Joel when I do- he’s a Sunday school teacher, and quite stringent about having his faith guide him through his life- very disparate from my own experiences with Catholicism.
My favourite lines from it are probably Everyday you try to pick up all the pieces / All the memories, they somehow never leave you / Nobody sees you / Nobody would believe you / God only knows what you’re been through / God only knows what they say about you / But God only knows the real you / There’s a kind of love that God only knows.
I’ve been writing a really tragic/angsty character in a visual novel recently, so I’ve been listening to a lot of the Buttertones, which has always given me the vibes of an empty Mid-Atlantic seaside down during the autumn.
I’ve been enjoying Richard Dawson lately - an English experimental folk musician who stands out for his storytelling and lyricism. The first track (“The Hermit”) on his most recent album, The Ruby Cord, is over 40 minutes & is a slow burning but very rewarding blend of deep future science fiction, the post apocalypse, and high fantasy. Here’s a sample stanza:
Vaporous shafts of a burgeoning sun
Skewer the forest-floor onto a world, fresh begun
All in the name of the harvest
I.e. our ever-onrushing plasma
If any of you are genre fiction nerds + weird folk enjoyers, this one’s worth checking out.