I’ve had a very difficult time writing this and have been stuck flipping through write/rewrite/start over/angst/etc.
So, I’m going to spare everyone the self-analysis, imposter syndrome, and other hang-ups due to various social programming.
First of all, thank you, all of you. While I’m not fully recovered (still using a walker, working for that cane at some point), I did finally get back to work. It’s a previous employer who knew me well enough to look past my handicap and give me a chance to return. Also, my spouse managed to interview her way into a far better suited (far less physical labor) and far better paying position she will be starting on the 4th of November.
We would NOT have made it this far without your help. Period. And literally. I don’t know how to really show how much this has all mattered. I don’t know how one pays back a debt like this.
Which is what makes the next part all the harder to do. So much so, that I should have done this a week ago, yet here I am.
I was supposed to start my job on October 1st. My background check (I suppose to see if I had embraced a life of crime in the intervening three years) took far longer to come back than expected. This pushed my start date to October 17th. The problem with that is we were depending on my first full check to clear our rent on November 1st.
Had I started on the 1st (or even as late as the 5th) we would be fine. I did not anticipate nor plan for a 17 day delay in my start date.
So, that puts us asking for help, we both hope and have reason to expect, for the last time. With a two day check on the 1st, I could optimistically clear ~$175 after taxes. Our rent is $1100, which is a gap of $925.
It makes me more than a little sick to ask this again after everything already done (see first 2 paragraphs above) but I’ve [rationalized? excused??] it with the fact that faceplanting mere days before achieving financial self-sufficiency again would be a sort of slap in the face for those who’ve already helped us get this far. Maybe that is contrived, but that’s what I’ve clutched at to make this post.
So, could and would anyone be willing to help us get over what is (I’m pretty sure) our last stumbling block to being on our feet again?
Normally, I would ask folks to simply use the GoFundMe page @DeusIrae very kindly put together for us, but due to my waffling (again, please see 1st 2 paragraphs above) we no longer have the time to wait for GFM to process and transfer the funds before rent is due. So, if you would like to help, and you would intend for your help to actually address the problem at hand, then you’d have to be comfortable with Venmo, Cashapp, or PayPal.
This is entirely my own fault and I wouldn’t even know where to start with explaining without writing a short book.
Again, thank you for everything even if you can’t help us now. It meant and means the world to both of us.
Sincerely and appreciatively,
Dan (Pinkunz) and Heather
ETA: Just realized the pun with the title. Not intended, but fitting I guess.
ETA×2: I just realized this would be entirely without context for some folks, so if you don’t already know and are curious:
And there’s probably a few more scattered posts, but that should catch you up at least if you’re reading this and asking yourself, “who the hell is this?”
