Haven’t really left Canada, or the province, except for when I was a very little baby. I was offered a trip to go to California when I graduated highschool, but turned it down since I didn’t want to travel (bit of a homebody, to put it lightly) and preferred the alternative of getting the money that would’ve gone towards hotel fees and food on the trip for school stuff.
I really like it when we travel further up North, though. Not anywhere near the towns. But in the middle of the woods, where you’re totally going to fuck up your car on the drive in, there’s not help for awhiles out, and it’s just you and the conifers and the lake and if you drowned no one would come and find you. Fantastic isolation.
Love how cold it is. Dad first taught me how to fish, (though he’s still too anxious to let me bait the hooks myself, so he does that bit for me) and how to prep/cook one on a campfire on a trip up North. The water was so clear, you could see straight through to the bottom of the lake, but it was incredibly deep. He spent most of the trip anxious I might hurt myself or fall overboard, and to this day he’s adamant I always wear a life jacket if I’m near a body of water, but we had a great time. Nothing but us and our chatter and the crackle of the fire when I tossed in silly little pinecones just to hear them pop and explode, and the wind whipping up the waves like a sea. When I got bored, he put up a tent so I could read my books, and half dozing off in there was so comfortable. I’m not very good at steering the boat, turns out.
The silence, and the absolute dark, are what really stick out in my memory- how peaceful and how completely and utterly alone you were. Compared to the jellied translucent grey of the city’s night time, and the constant hum of traffic or drunk voices at night, or even the swish of car tires over the asphalt in the suburbs, it was so alien and so lovely to soak in. Plus it was nice to just get away from people. I liked sitting on the wooden dock and staring at the glassy surface of the lake early in the mornings, and observing black widows nestling in tree branch corners, and hearing the little birds cheep in the boughs.
I remember dad brought out his sunglasses and put them on me since he was concerned I’d hurt my vision staring at the reflected light, and brought a blanket out because of the wind- one of the rougher knit couch decoration-y ones, and we just sat together for awhile there. There were a lot of dragonflies alighting down in the shallows, and dad flicked one off of my head that I didn’t notice. That was probably one of my best summer trips anywhere ever.