Last day of holiday today, and I woke up very early to the first frost of the year on a crisp, sunny morning. Went for a 2 hour solo hike across the misty countryside, saw red kites and loads of muntjac deer. Beautiful.
9 Likes
My new single is officially out and people seem to dig a lot. I went out of my comfort zone with this one. I initialy come from a Metal background. 1200 Light Years is my solo project, a fusion between electronic music and Post-Rock, with electronica being the dominant ingredient. I play all the instruments (synths, bass, guitars, beats, vocals). I also did the mixing and mastering. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebLaYv6T6CM
If you want to support me, give it a spin via your preferred streaming platform, link below the YT vid. Stay safe out there!
8 Likes
This one’s a bit more grim.
It has certainly been a morning, though the anguish has been replaced with a grim sort of relief. Bizarrely, the idea that if I killed myself, it wouldn’t matter to anyone, is both paradoxically painful and incredibly relieving. It’s almost freeing, in a sense, to confront that thought directly. If it doesn’t matter, then I might as well not do it, because it’s pointless. I might as well live. Grappling with severe suicidal ideation and sitting with the bottle of Tylenol in my hands, pills shaken out and stared down- it suddenly hit me like a lightning bolt. Why bother? My death wouldn’t matter. So I might as well live. I took one Tylenol for the pain, and am nursing a cup of coffee. So that’s worth living for- painkillers and caffeine.
3 Likes
And kittens!
3 Likes
Yeah, and kittens. I put on one of my favourite kitten videos of all time, and it’s nice to see the little fluffy guys get taken care of so gently. She’s a really kind animal rescuer, and the kittens are so cute.
2 Likes
I had one of those, too! I had a baby molar until I was about 35 and it finally gave up. I was also missing my top wisdom teeth, so at least I only had to have the bottom ones removed. Apparently, it’s a really common mutation to be missing those teeth in those locations, so at least I’m a common mutant instead of a really weird one.
I would have blown a gasket if someone threw my tooth away. They asked me about mine and autoclaved them when I said I wanted them. I gave them to my mom so she could have a last tooth fairy experience. I think I got $10 per tooth, as I was about 25 at the time.
I had my jaw purposefully broken and reconstructed about 40 years ago (so a “civilized” breaking done in the OR), and yes, the repercussions just keep echoing through time. Every decade there’s something awful.
Not to ruin the argument you made for staying with us, but it would matter to me very much. I’ve had too much of that in my life.
Positive: We ate our pizza and when you haven’t had pizza in a few months, even run-of-the-mill pizza is fantastic. I had onions, mushrooms, jalapeños, and banana peppers on mine.
7 Likes
Thanks, Amanda. I appreciate it.
I have mostly just settled for ‘well, one day I’ll stop hating myself marginally and it’ll be just enough to permit killing myself to put a stop to the soul grinding combination of physical pain and mental anguish, but that day isn’t today, so whatever, we persist in said suffering,’ which is perhaps not exactly the most mentally healthy perspective, but whatever works for not changing my mind and downing handfuls of Tylenol and leftover antidepressants, both of which are in sufficient quantities on my bedside to do so.
2 Likes
4 Likes
Oh wow. I didn’t know this was common. I was the only person I knew.
Would you have felt… steamed? Get it, autoclave? Steam?
That’s nice.
-Wade
2 Likes
If they’re interested in brewing with them (or have other hop-based projects), let me know and I’ll send you a list of what we wound up being able to spare! At this point, though, we’ve dehydrated all of them, so none of them are genuinely fresh any more.
My dental history isn’t the best, but it isn’t the worst. My lower left third molar(wisdom tooth) never came in(not sure if it just doesn’t exist or never pushed through the gums, but the other three never gave me trouble and there’s plenty of room where the missing molar should be. I think my upper canines might have been baby teeth that only came out in my 30s since they were so small and I managed to extract them at home(or as I sometimes think of it, I defanged myself). My upper lateral incisor is so misalinged I can run my tongue between it and it’s central neighbor and is oddly both very mobile yet solidly attached to my gums. Really should get my upper right pre-molar and upper left first molar extracted as the former is broken off even with the gum line and the latter is mostly so, with both having some gum growth over the remaining root, but no dental insurance and the cost of extraction is more than my SSDI can manage. And the abscess tooth I had pulled was my lower right second molar. Probably have a bunch of cavities that should be treated as well.
On a more positive note, today I wrote some code to calculate a probability problem I’ve been curious about for a while(taking the middle value of rolling 3dn, inspired by Matt Parker’s video on rolling multiple dice and taking the highest value), and got inspired for another of my math art pieces… and found that, deciding to save some of the program’s output as a ascii-formatted portable graymap, some of the output actually gets bigger converting to png(granted, it was like a 4*4 grayscale image representing all the possible rolls of 2d4 with a third held constant and the file was under 100 bytes with my SSD having 4KB blocks, meaning no actual change in the filesize reported by du, but I still found it humorous).
Also, managed the self control to make a tin of Royal Dansk butter cookies last 4 days.
2 Likes
Finally got round to doing a little cleaning up of my neocities page, which admittedly doesn’t look very different, but I’m happy with it!
4 Likes
I am in athens
I went on a tour of the Acropolis, and labeled the pics so I don’t forget what they are later
11 Likes
Managed to scrape together coherent thoughts into a blog post, which was comforting. I don’t really ultimately know what I’m going to do about the subject matter, but at least I’ve compiled all of the thoughts that have been gnawing away at me for months.
7 Likes
A nice time seeing friends this morning and now a dozy afternoon with the sun shining through the blinds.
4 Likes
Oh wow! You saw the Erechteion!
When we visited I stood staring at the Kariatids for an hour.
Have fun, and drink it all in.
4 Likes
thanks, we are! do you have any recommendations on what to check out (aside from the acropolis and acropolis museum?)
2 Likes
The National Gardens, for sure. We took a picnic and spent a whole day there, walking and talking and laying in the grass, and just enjoying the trees and plants and ancient ruins.
2 Likes
sorry for being a Naval Historian, but i recommend the pair of historical warships and the wooden replica at the Pireus:
- Armoured Cruiser Georgi Averoff
- Destroyer Velos
- Trireme Olympiakos
Best regards from Italy,
dott. Piergiorgio.
4 Likes
The National Archaeological Museum has the Antikythera mechanism.
You can also go by bus to the Temple of Poseidon at Sounion, which is a less well-known (so there was basically no one else around when I visited) and less complete temple, but it’s in a super scenic location. I had to see it because it’s mentioned in one of my favourite poems by Byron (who also maybe carved his name into part of the ruin when he visited?).
4 Likes