You don’t owe us or anyone else an explanation, but, fwiw, I find your motives as well as your continued advocacy for TADS while still doing what’s right for you and the community you wish to reach very admirable.
(P.S. Congrats on your “Russel’s Award” from the IFDBs. It was very well deserved and I am very proud of you, my friend. Very gratified to see you validated.)